It’s Alive

 

Were we meant to fly

to swim

in darkness

against the light?

Were the stories we tell

the songs we sing

meant to swim out of the darkness

into the light?

What are we without the stories

without the music?

We are the muscle, the bones

the heart

our blood for paint and ink

We are living art.

 

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Hammershoi

Soul Food Alphabet Project: Fire Is For Fire Filled Forge

As The Crow Flies

My Grandfather
My Grandfathers

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My Grandfathers didn’t really know each other.

One lived in Seattle, the other in Honokaa, Hawaii.

When I was about 7 they were both in Washington at the same time- and though they didn’t meet up they both told me a story.

My Grandfather Bert’s story took place in Seattle, my Grandfather Cypriano’s version in Hawaii.

In the story they stopped at the side of the road to help a woman- she flagged them down if I remember it right.

My Grandfather Cypriano was pretty clear- the woman was a ghost- a bad one. And he drove off.

My Grandfather Bert, didn’t drive off. He had some sort of conversation with her and it did not go well. I was under the impression she had scared him pretty bad.

They both told me at the end of the story to never stop for this woman- ever. Don’t even talk to her they said.

So this brings me to now

and

My Neighbor and A Murder of Crows.

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I noticed her for the first time two years ago when I had just got my puppy Hamish and  had started walking him everyday because a smart Labrador Pup with too much time on his paws is not a good combination in one  small creature who will grow to be a big dog.

On the day we saw her, were walking up the hill when five or six crows settled down on the fences and wires and some were in the trees. The entire time they were flying in and setting down they were in a rage and at first I thought there may have been an injured one or even a baby crow on the ground but as far as I could see there was nothing.

They were ignoring me and Hamish, they were much interested in what was coming towards us.

She was tiny and petite and blond- she was wearing headphones and jogging- her hair was caught behind her head in a pony tail. I don’t see a lot of joggers in my neighborhood, but the ones who do come through aren’t covered by a cloud of crows dive bombing them each step of the way.

Hamish was about 12 weeks old at the time, so I kept him walking because he was in his jumping up phase  and when she jogged by us she smiled at me and Hamish ran behind my leg and hid.

Photo: A.M Moscoso
Photo: A.M Moscoso

It been over two years since me and Hamish saw The Jogger and The Murder of Crows- we always know when she’s coming because the crows fly ahead of her. Me and Hamish stay on the other side of the street from her and she ignores us, but Hamish always raises his hackles at her and he doesn’t even seem to notice all of the crows which is some trick because there are easily over two dozen of them cawing their lungs out and buzzing around her.

To be honest, the sight of that is disturbing but I’m glad the crows are there.

At the beginning of last  fall me and Luis were walking Hamish when the Jogger came right by us and the crows were there too- of course.  I know Hamish doesn’t like her so I was worried he’d growl or bark. So I was going to move him to my left and just as I did she did she was right next to Luis and Hamish jumped up and pushed Luis away from her.

There were about five crows that had set down on the fence and when they saw Hamish do that, they took off after the jogger and buzzed her – they were literally in her face. They were furious. I had never seen them that angry in two years.

So you might be wondering what the Jogger does when the crows are swarming her- not a thing. She doesn’t wave her arms around or yell ‘shoo’ or anything. She just has a creepy smile on her face. She keeps on jogging.

So what do we think?

Are these events connected?

I think so.

That’s why I’ve never said a word to her- ever.

It seems like a good idea not to.

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Interesting Reading: Crows on Campus– I’ve seen them here and it’s quite a sight when they come in to roost for the night.

Soul Food Cafe Project: RAVEN WRITING PROJECT

The Bonds Of Seth

20160630_121528-1-1-1.jpgI have found that I am at my most creative not when I connect with the world around me, but when I’m not afraid to connect with myself and what is going on inside of my own head.

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Sometimes it’s easy to go on my blog and ‘rant’ as the kids call it. Sometimes I have some valid things to say, but most of the time I wish I had written a story or tried my hand at a poem instead.

I’m reading and watching a lot of Joseph Campbell now days, and I’ve learned that with a shared story- and without the people who create and tell these stories our sense of community fails.

Facebook is an example of people struggling to connect and the story there is how they’ve done it- or for the most part how they’ve NOT connected. One day I figure that will be a recognized part of our mythos.

But who will tell that story? Who will find the heroes and the villains and record the path that people found themselves on once they entered the realm of Facebook.

People who write stories is the short answer.

So I guess that should be the voice I use.

 

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This picture shows Anubis in a ceremony for the Dead called ” Opening Of The Mouth “

It enables the dead to speak and breathe again.

I’m not dead, but I like the idea-

If you’re a creative person it’s easy to get lost, get distracted and in that our work dies. I think I’ll remember this ritual.

I think it will be part of my story.

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SFC Alphabet Project: E Is For The Cosmic Egg

How My Light Is Spent

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When I write, I reach into every part of my brain for images and words, ideas and moments I can use to color my work.

I don’t really think about the cost of opening all of those closed doors, digging up those bodies and bones, waking those demons from their sleep.

Once I visit them they’re free to wander around in my head and sooner or later they pop out of my mouth during conversations, in nightmares and dreams and I’m not so sure that is a bad thing.

Sometimes I hear my writer’s voice over riding the voice I use and have used for many years.

It’s voice that never really said what I was thinking, it was a voice that never took chances or belonged to a brain that wanted to go in one direction while common sense and the life belonging to a blue collar suburbanite wanted to go in another.

Sometimes that Voice that belongs to the Writer in me curls her lip up Elvis style and paints a picture in words that sucks the oxygen out of the room- and instead of hoping I didn’t offend anyone I want to do a victory lap around the room.

How’s that going for me you ask?

Swimmingly well, I’d reply.

Do you know how many years I’ve spent measuring each and every word that fell out of my mouth because I didn’t want to offend or upset anybody. Too many.

And if I had not started to write again and opened those doors and rattled those bones I doubt if I would have changed.

I’m willing to speak up for one reason- if it makes me a better writer I will speak up, I will treat my own ideas and thoughts with the same respect I have given to other people.

I have always wanted to be a Writer- and I am learning that is who I am- its not what i do.

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Soul Food Cafe Prompt: Milton and the Muse

 

Garden of Abaddon

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Your bones are graceless

the light has gone from your eyes

your soul has since fled

the rotting husk you live in

 

Let me free you

from your tomb here on Earth

I’ll craft you a new one

 

where you belong

I’ll bury you deep

I’ll leave you to sleep

and

dream

and scream

Forever

In

The Garden of  Abaddon.

 

“D”

 Is for Descent into the Under World